Protection

Protection doesn’t always look like action - or fighting - or defending. Sometimes, it can look like nothing at all. smiling and nodding. pretending like you arent scared. apathy. disassociation. most times, i find my brain is protecting me from memories by shutting down and whispering to me - “it’s okay, we dont have to think about that right now.” and then I fall asleep and pretend that hard memories arent real. and so i get up, drive to work. i talk to my coworkers. i call my friend. i listen to that podcast. and i tuck my past away in order to function. and that is the finest protection of all.